anGeL_dEaR

my favorite song.. as i lay me down...

2004-12-09T22:28:00.000-08:00

It felt like spring time on this February morningIn the courtyard birds were singing your praiseI'm still recalling things you said to make me feelAlright I carried them with me today now
As I lay me down to sleepThis I prayThat you will hold me dearThough I'm far awayI'll whisper your nameInto the skyAnd I will wake up happy
I wonder whyI feel so high though I am not above the sorrowHeavy hearted 'till you call my nameAnd it sounds like church bells or the whistle of a trainOn a summer evening I'll run to meet you barefootBarely breathing
As I lay me down to sleepThis I prayThat you will hold me dearThough I'm far awayI'll whisper your nameInto the skyAnd I will wake up happy (oh darling)
As I lay me down to sleepThis I prayThat you will hold me dearThough I'm far awayI'll whisper your nameInto the skyAnd I will wake up happy
It's not too near for meLike a flower I need the rainThough it's not clear to meEvery season has its changeAnd I will see youWhen the sun comes out again
As I lay me down to sleepThis I prayThat you will hold me dearThough I'm far awayI'll whisper your nameInto the skyAnd I will wake up happy (oh oh...)
As I lay me down to sleepThis I prayThat you will hold me dearThough I'm far awayI'll whisper your nameInto the skyAnd I will wake up happy
I wonder why (hmmm)When the sun comes out againWhen the sun comes out againWhen the sun comes out againWhen the sun comes out again (oooh)When the sun comes out againWhen the sun comes out again (hmmm)(comes out comes out oooh)And I will wake up happySo I pray

is this the kind of mah destination...?!

2004-11-08T01:29:00.000-08:00

yah right..?! what is this feeling again??! why is this stupid fuckin thing always happens.. or I mean is happen again?!! grrr..! am so hated!! really... grr.. i feel am so stupid whenever this wrong things happenind to meeh..?!? why?! is it mah fault?? yah.. maybe it is.. but not totally i've done the real or the main point.. am not the guy.., so suppostedly he is the one responsible for this thing.. welll.. well.. it's his LOST not MINE..! okey?! what is his right to fight for?!? duhh.. hello?!? and who is he that i would cry just because of he've done what he wants!!? yah right.. that's why am so stupid.. why does I GAVE THAT IMPORTANT THING again..!! grrr...!! I HATE MYSELF!! ='( hope there would still GUYS.. or GUY.. who can REALLY UNDERSTAND.., ACCEPT.., have PATIENT and have CARE of WHO is the REAL "ME"... I'm Sooo.. SCARED about this stupid and hated thing whenever it already happend.. why am so like that?!! am soooo.. STUPID..!! grrrr..!! Lord.. HELP MEEH!!! My dear Beloved Friends... be always there FOR ME!! whatever did I SAY HERE... hope you can UNDERSTAND AND still LOVE WHAT and WHO REALLY AM I....=) and hope that IF YOU'RE one of my pasts.. or I mean those I LOVED BEFORE Who cn read this... CAN YOU PLEASE JUST ACCEPT AND LOVE THE WAY I AM!! 'cause I'M her living on this WONDERFUL EARTH just because this is ME!! sipmly mE!!! okey!? hope again and again.. i REPEAT,, this is the REAL ME!! no one can CHANGE ME.. rather someone or SOMEBODY CAN CHANGE MY unexplainable and cnt understand attitude.. soo.. hopin for your COMFORT!! LOVE YOU ALL!! God Bless Always!!

mY sOnG.. I am Beautiful.. No maTteR wHat thEy SaY..

2004-09-01T03:40:00.000-07:00

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the fame, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone and the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words won't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words won't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay
And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine
(sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times

We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down
We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

hOw did You know?

2004-08-27T03:17:00.000-07:00

I remember so well
The day that you came into my life
You asked for my name
You had the most beautiful smile

My life started to change
I'd wake up each day feeling alright
With you right by my side
Makes me feel things will work out just fine

How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there's an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life

I'll never forget
How you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say
It's not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much I love you

if I ain't Got You [by aLicia kEys & uShEr]

2004-08-27T02:38:00.000-07:00

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

And in a world on a silver platter
And wondering what it means
No one to share, no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby